Festival of trees.....
Jay, Katy and I took Jayda and Noah to the Festival of Trees tonight.... what a great time we had :) I am getting addicted to making montages so I thought I would have some funwith the pics from tonight... hope you enjoy ;)
Friday, November 30, 2007
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
RPL testing....
I heard from Dr.G today... so far all things are looking pretty good. My thyroid is a bit out of wack despite being on meds already so I have to see my family dr for an adjustment asap. Dr.G wants to keep a very close eye on things and if we can't get perfect control he will send me to yet another specialist... oh goody :P. My HSG showed that structurally all is fine so that was really good. There are a few results yet to come in so something may crop up but he feels quite positive that there will be nothing... wish I could feel that way. In one way I am happy nothing is wrong and on the other hand it makes things so hard because it means there is no reason for why I lost our babies :(
We have also been given the clearence to start trying again. Jay and I talked and are going to go on our own til at least the new year and then we will look at meds again. I would like to still have the biopsy if Dr.G can ever get a good time because that will tell us if my hormones are allowing a proper lining to buld for an embryo to implant in... guess we will see what happens.
Welcome to Walmart. How may I help you.....
Just had to share my geeky picture lol. Work is going great... I am sooooooo happy I made the move! I have been cross trained on cash and to be a people greeter and really enjoy both. I volunteered to do the midnight shifts when we go 24 hours ... that ought to be interesting :)
Thursday, November 08, 2007
Retail here I come....
Well I am back to the working world as of Saturday. I went to an interview at Wal-mart tonight and was hired on the spot. I will be a cashier... woo hoo just in time for Christmas lol. Pay could be better but isn't horrilbe. Benefits after 6 months, profit sharing, stock options, discount shopping... overall pretty decent.
Wish me luck its beem over 18 years since I have done retail lol
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Its been awhile.....
and so much has been going on. The latest big news is that I quit my job. It got to just be too much to handle and it jsut had to happen. After many hours of soul searching and talking to Jay and the family along with my counseller I have also decided to leave the rehab field. It may only be for awhile or it may be forever... I will just see where life takes me in the next few months.
In other news...
We have finally started the process for the recurrent pregnancy loss testing. It took a bit to get my guts up to go but its actually underway. I had all the bloodwork drawn and am being tested for everything imaginable... to the tune of 12 viles of blood! I have my HSG scheduled for Monday am so we will see if there is a structural problem with my uterus. We have yet to schedule the endometrial biopsy... Dr.G is tryign to decide the best way to get this one in becuase it has to be done at a certain point in the cycle and my cycles are crazy if not non existant but to get drugs to keep a month on track we could mask some of the possible issues. He wants to think about it and see what we get from the other results.
My counselling is progressing at a nice pace. I can not believe how hard it has been and yet how positive it has been. I am learning so much about myself and who I am to me. I have shed many tears and felt emotion so overwhelming it took my breath away and yet I keep going back. I have yet to start journelling but I know I need to.... there is so much I want to get out and for so many reasons its not okay to put it down here on the blog. On the advice of my counseller we are attending a monthly miscarriage support group and its been a very positive experience for both jay and myself...and it is helping us heal and move forward to hopefully trying again God willing. Also on the advice of my counseller I am reading The Complete ACOA Source book. I read chapter one... I haven't been able to go back to it. It was like the author was in my head. As things in my sessions progress I will try going to an ACOA meeting and to become involved ina journey of healing with others like me. I did try an ACOA chat room yesterday and it was an awakening experience as well.... these people I have never met are living my life inside my head inside my heart... what a sad connection! So the joureny will tough and I know I have mnay hard moments ahead of me... I just keep dreaming of the day I won't feel the overwhelming sadness and can heal some of the many wounds on my heart.
Okay... now that all that tough stuff is out on to the positives. Been seeing lots of the kids... got to make a quick trip to Calgary and let me tell you when the days are the darkest I pull on those memories and look at my pictures of all those little loving faces to help pull me through. So on that note I will sign off and leave you will some smiles :)
and so much has been going on. The latest big news is that I quit my job. It got to just be too much to handle and it jsut had to happen. After many hours of soul searching and talking to Jay and the family along with my counseller I have also decided to leave the rehab field. It may only be for awhile or it may be forever... I will just see where life takes me in the next few months.
In other news...
We have finally started the process for the recurrent pregnancy loss testing. It took a bit to get my guts up to go but its actually underway. I had all the bloodwork drawn and am being tested for everything imaginable... to the tune of 12 viles of blood! I have my HSG scheduled for Monday am so we will see if there is a structural problem with my uterus. We have yet to schedule the endometrial biopsy... Dr.G is tryign to decide the best way to get this one in becuase it has to be done at a certain point in the cycle and my cycles are crazy if not non existant but to get drugs to keep a month on track we could mask some of the possible issues. He wants to think about it and see what we get from the other results.
My counselling is progressing at a nice pace. I can not believe how hard it has been and yet how positive it has been. I am learning so much about myself and who I am to me. I have shed many tears and felt emotion so overwhelming it took my breath away and yet I keep going back. I have yet to start journelling but I know I need to.... there is so much I want to get out and for so many reasons its not okay to put it down here on the blog. On the advice of my counseller we are attending a monthly miscarriage support group and its been a very positive experience for both jay and myself...and it is helping us heal and move forward to hopefully trying again God willing. Also on the advice of my counseller I am reading The Complete ACOA Source book. I read chapter one... I haven't been able to go back to it. It was like the author was in my head. As things in my sessions progress I will try going to an ACOA meeting and to become involved ina journey of healing with others like me. I did try an ACOA chat room yesterday and it was an awakening experience as well.... these people I have never met are living my life inside my head inside my heart... what a sad connection! So the joureny will tough and I know I have mnay hard moments ahead of me... I just keep dreaming of the day I won't feel the overwhelming sadness and can heal some of the many wounds on my heart.
Okay... now that all that tough stuff is out on to the positives. Been seeing lots of the kids... got to make a quick trip to Calgary and let me tell you when the days are the darkest I pull on those memories and look at my pictures of all those little loving faces to help pull me through. So on that note I will sign off and leave you will some smiles :)
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
