Saying Goodbye to Peanut......

Today we attended a Memorial Service for families who have lost a baby. It was a very simple service and I think just what we needed to say a final and offical goodbye to our precious Peanut. The service started off with a candle lighting...

Then moved on to some poems read by families. The poem were very heart touching and so very true to how I am sure everyone in the room feels. During one of the poems called Pebbles they passed around little rocks for each person to take in rememberance of their baby. They also gave us all bracelets that say Remembering Our Babies ( I was unable to get a pic of the pebbles or bracelets... they just didn't turn out) and a Baby Teardrop plant

Once the candles were all lit and the poems were read we moved on to a cemetery for a balloon release. We each were give a card, the front of the cards said:

With these Balloons, We remember our babies who have died.

Death has forced us to say let go of the children we would hold.

But as we let go of our balloons we send forth a message:

To our community, Our babies were wanted, were real, are loved and remembered.

To one another as bereaved families, You are not alone.

With Support, we survive and grow.

To our beloved babies, We remember you.

We miss you.

And most of all we love you.

The back of the cards allowed room for each of us to write our own special message to our baby. Then as one group we said goodbye to our babies and set our balloons free... click balloons to see a video of the release

The service ended with a special prayer and each of us sprinkling rose petals on a special grave in the baby section at the cemetery...

I left the service feeling so much better. I had such anxiety on our way there and I was so scared about the feelings that may erupt but in the end the service helped to free my heart from the grief and allow me to simply remember my Peanut with Joy :)

Lilac Hunting....

I so love this time of year and seeing all the flowers start to bloom. Like my mom I totally love lilacs and can't wait each year for them to start showing themselves :) Jay and I went walking around the neighborhood to see how all the various trees were doing and we got a few really pretty shots

When we are out walking I love to see what people have done with their flowers. We came a cross one yard that was FULL of them! I love the flower towers this person had created so we took some pictures of them too

Across the street from us we have an extended care home. They have a really nice garden area so we decided to go over and try out the timer feature again to take a pic of the two of us since we have so few. When we got there one of the residents started chatting with us and she commented on the lilacs that I had picked and how pretty they were. She then asked for assistance from us to push her wheelchair back up to her room since the nursing staff was too busy at that moment to come out for her.... we did. She was a very sweet lady and was very happy when I offered to share the flowers with her.... how could I not. It was such a simple gesture for us to wheel her back to her room and leave a few flowers... but it sure made her smile. If I see her out on the garden again I will have to pop over and have a chat :) When did head back out and take a pic and woo hoo Jay even has his hat off :P Not a site people other than me see very often lol

Overall it was nice simple walk through our neighborhood. I love adventuring out to see new places but there is just something about staying close to home, walking hand in hand chatting about everything and anything while enjoying the things that are right at our fingertips :)

Just popping by to say a quick hello and say we are still alive :) Its been a hectic few days. For the most part it's fine to not have a car but times like this past few days where we have a bunch of running to do it really SUCKS lol becasue we waste sooo much time. Oh well at least the weather has been spectacular and we can soak up the sun.

It would appear that Buster is getting over the Shake and Bake trauma.... we made some the other night and he made it through just fine lmao. All the furbabies are quite enjoying the warm weather and all the windows being wide open... its entertaining watching Taz and Belle compete for the window in the bedroom lol.

A happy belated Mothers Day to everyone. I hope you all had special days :)

Off to gather my stuff and make a run for the bus so I cna make it to work on time. I must say the night shift is going to make for a fun summer if the sun time we have had the last few days is any indication WOO HOO :)

Jayda Rain Winjet arrived May 6, 2005 at 1:38pm weighing in at 7lbs 7ozs and was 20 inches long

Dear Jayda,

Welcome to the family sweetie... we might be a little crazy at times but I guarentee there isn't a group of people on this earth who would love you more :)

I have been wondering about you for it feels like forever... from the moment your mommy told me she was pregnant I loved you. I couldn't wait to hold you and on Monday I got that chance... and wow what a feeling when you looked at me and then drifted right back to sleep in my arms. I remember clear as if it was yesterday the first time I held your mommy.... where did those 24 years go.

We hope that you grow up to be as amazing as she is and more importantly as strong as she is. We hope you grow up knowing that your parents are going to be your two very best friends and that you will have the support of all of us any time you struggle. We will all be there to pick you up if you fall and we will be there to celebrate even your smallest accomplishments. We hope you realize that you are beautiful in more ways that you can possibly imagine. I could go on an on about our hopes for you.... but the song I Hope You Dance really sums it up :) Uncle Jay designed a little slide show so we could share your pictures with all our friends and we picked that song because it truly does send a message to you as you begin this adventure called life.

Love you for now and for always,
Auntie Kerri & Uncle Jay

Click On Picture For Slideshow

EWWWWWWWWW......

so I am outside with the dogs feezing my butt off just wanting them to hurry up and do their business when suddenly my toes get warm. I look down and discover Buster is PEEING on my foot!!!!! GROSS!!!! LOL I have been walking him for over 10 years now and NEVER has he done that before. Oh well guess there is a first time for everything lmao :P

New Use for Shake and Bake.....

it can be used to induce Post Traumatic Stress Disorder lol. Yep we made that discovery tonight. In a previous post I mentioned how scared Buster got when the smoke detector went off while I was making chicken. Well tonight we thought it sounded good for supper again so I threw some in. Buster was fine... relaxing away until the smell of the chicken hit the room when I opened the oven. Instantly he was shaking like a leaf and I couldn't calm him down. When I went to the oven again he hightailed it out of the room and hid in our bedroom until supper was over and after a few sniff's in the air and a good cuddle with daddy ( he had no interest in me lol the bad mommy I am) he was fine again and back to his happy litte self. Poor litte bugger.... anyone know of a good pet psychatrist????

Ahhhhh this is the life.......


...We managed to Capture Taz's favorite napping position and knew just had to share! Isn't he cute :) :)

Random Thoughts....

No set purpose of this post... just more of a babble fest lol.

Its been an interesting day. We woke up to snow.... have I said lately how much I hate Alberta weather. It wasn't long before the snow changed to rain adn the rain turned to winds gusting at 53 km's per hour. INSANE. Have you ever tried to walk a dog that has sensitive ears in that kind of wind... well let me tell you it sucks. Teddi hates even the slightest wind and HAS to scratch her ears. Today was entertaining to say the least when shes wanting to scratch and take her morning poop at the same time. LOL... sigh prolly something only another dog owner would find entertaining :P

The afternoon was running around and lugging groceries home on the bus... the only task I hate not having a car for. I had some heavy bags but becasue I have been having troubles with my neck again Jay took the bad ones... poor bugger had to lug 8 litres of milk and 8 litres of pepsi home. Have I said lately how much I love him????

Home and relaxed for a bit while suppers cooking. I had shake and bake chicken in and when I opened the oven to check it... well lets say chicken fat, 400 degree ovens and smoke detectors don't mix lol. So we know it works but what we didn't expect was Buster reaction.... the poor little bugger was terrified. It took us forever to calm him down. Then a couple hours later I am off to have a bath and burst out laughing... I didn't realize that Jay had covered it up with a towel. He came to take it down and Buster was literally trembling in fear again and couldn't get into my arms fast enough. Poor little guy... how do you explain to a dog that yes its scarey but smoke detectors are a very good thing????

Have Buster settled and finally crawled into my bath... god I love apartment living and the unlimited hot water. A hunny how much do you love me and a really sweet grin got me treated to a session of getting water poured over my neck... something my mom used to refer to as drowning. SIGH.... melt, melt. Have I said lately how much I love my hubby lol

So the time has arrived for out Tuesday night shows and some much needed cuddle time. I love working nights but boy I miss snuggling with Jay during our evening shows. Hmmm maybe I'll bake some peanut butter cookies for snack....